Behind the Laughter.

Mon key to true happiness.

Real talk. I haven't been happy, truly happy, for years. I wonder whether or not i am not happy because i am weird, or weird because i am debilitated by a deep sadness. Am i lonely because i am depressed or depressed because i am not able to maintain friendships? Am i incapable of maintaining relationships or am i not interested in people? People disappoint. Friends don't know how to love me long term. Am i happy to be alone or am i invisible and thus just dealing with oneness the best that can be expected. Am i laughing or am i acting. Real talk, i am really laughing because i am really funny. I am a really good friend because i am really good and friendly. I do fear intimacy and that must be because i am afraid that people fear my intimidation and subsequently, me. If you give me a chance, you might like me and we can't have that can we?.

Cat claws? No thanks!

I went to court today for the Vegascabbie offence. They gave me 5.5 hours of community service at the non-profit of my choice. I want to do an animal shelter. I want an animal. Dog, cat, monkey or pangolin. I prefer the pangolin because they require the least attention. Monkeys are a barrel full and dogs shit all over the yard. Cats are cool but don't need people and their smile is not always genuine. Dogs have a need for people and when they smile, they mean it. Pangolins dont have a smile and monkeys have the cutest, human like smiles. Cats bury their shit, monkeys throw their shit and pangolin shit can be made into bling and sold on the open market. Dogs protect by biting and barking, pangolins hide underground and only come out at night, monkeys will party with anyone and domesticated cats are useless. Cats are feline and dogs are mans best friends.

Do the carpets match the drapes? Yup!

I think i'll get a girlfriend who has a monkey face.