Comforting to know.

In this time of trying to re-start the need to help others while finding an income for myself, i need to find self assurance and reassurance in order to fight on. This is not difficult for me it's just that it's nicer when help is forthcoming. All my life I remain an outsider and thus have no sounder from which to hear platitudinous encouragement.
It's comforting to know that my ideas are good enough to hold audience with 90% of my audience.
It's comforting to know that people in my past are losing out on my presence and not benefiting from my absence.
It's comforting to know that I am still attractive to objects of the opposite sex and that when i try i can get some.
It's comforting to know that i still have some givadamn left and that i care enough to refine my philanthropic parameters rather than give up on giving it up. 
It's comforting to know that i can potentially raise 100 million$ + yearly and leave behind a perpetual salve producing machine that will be responsible for a great deal of the necessary healing that needs to happen globalocally.
It's comforting to know that everything will be alright even though i will never be comfortable because of the shingle pain and the fear that everything isn't alright.
It's comforting to know that i don't know everything but that i know most everything that i need to know. I know!
It's comforting to know that within a month there will be no more excuses between me and the exposure of me to the advantage of those that care and those that want to care.
It's comforting to know that i have 130 designs on paper and another 450 designs at the ready.
It's comforting to know that no is not an answer that i have to accept.